sigh ppl....the class blog is so freaking screwed. i dono wat to do to it liao. change the template but thank god they got rid of the bandwith exceeded thing. Anyways the template they changed was so... ermx...unoriginal... cos they didn't even bother to change the name wat's more, it didn't even have a TAG BOARD!!! elaine and i revamped the blog tag board and the links are there. now all we're missing are the birthdays sigh ppl dates to us again SIGH
tsk... fretting over the class blog... i've seriously nthn else to do. i so dun wanna do my hw yet... argh. ruici tinking of watching monster-in-law... sigh... parents mite not even allow. i want a new leotard... cos my black one wun be able to dry within a day and i have to use my blue one for ms lee's class... sigh ppl.... my wish list's getting bigger!!!
20050529.
Melt Away @ 20:51.
hi pple... i've finally gotten my pointe shoes. lalalala... i tried them on... not exactly THAT painful... but the knuckles to hurt after a while... All i'm missing now is my toe pad for the shoe... i'll have to wait for them till next week. lolx i'm crazy.
so crazy. dad went for PTD on thursday and got my report book... sigh. terrible. i cant go online frequently anymore and i've to put myself on study mode throughout the june holidays... WHAT THE HELL...
what's more... my place is going for the en bloc sale... sigh... gotta move out in like 1yr's tim. yesh i'm happy tt it's en bloc cos tis place's lykk falling apart... but i'm oso not feeling too good abt it. reasons? my parents are thinking of moving outta the east zone... lyk maybe nearer to my sch and then transfer my sis to SCP. but then again... i hope that they were joking. cos they sounded kinda like joking. and if i seriously move out of the east zone
hyperventilate. it's not impossible. my life's in a mess. my online tym, my sch grades, my home, my brains, my soul, my piano... sigh... cant imagine relocating my piano... haix... i'll have to tear down my posters, rip off my radio wires, reshelf my CDs, rearrange my books, redo my room. NO!!!! I DUN WANT TO DO THAT!... sigh.
20050525.
Melt Away @ 20:46.
Sigh. elaine came over to my house today to do the damned fairytale proj which was lykk supposed to be handed in yesterday... haix.... the story was lykk not even completed when she had to leave. sorry 'laine... u gotta do the pictures. fdamned printer. i feel so... stressed over projects. yesterday, ms lee said tt she wants to get measurement for our pointe shoes liao... naturally, i'm happie. but tinking abt blisters? orh nvm... i still want them aniwaex. i can't stop playing the CD i bought on monday... addicted to it or smthn laiddt... the lyrics are really emotional... not forgetting vulgar. yesh it's loud. that's what i lykk abt it. as for sch? tmr's Parent-Teacher Dialogue (PTD). the letter says they encourage the pupils to go wit their parents... but seriously... hu's gonna gif a damn to it? on friday, i'm gonna buy chi ying's jesse mccartney. she's willing to sell at 15. had a hard tym bargaining wit her... she wanted 16 at first. but i still need to get tingfang a present. sigh...
20050523.
Melt Away @ 18:42.
lalalal.... hyper again... went out wit chi ying and jun yan. first stop was cine leisure... we wanted to go k box but changed our minds later... cos the smell of cigarettes and smoke was intoxicating... wanted to puke... BADLY. we found cine boring after a while... so we went over to Heeren... first store we went of course was HMV!!! chi ying bought the jesse mccartney album while i bought an album form The Used. dun ask me hu they are... i jux lurve their songs... 4th track seriously rocks. in fact... the whole album does cos it's punk rock... lolx i wore lykk all black today. obsession lolx i guess... then after roaming around in Heeren for wat seemed lyk eternity, chi ying got bored and we headed off to Far East Plaza... wtf... it was so phreaking old la... then we took neoprints there... Jun Yan and Chi Ying bought some stuff from the 77th Street... I? nothing... cos i din wanna be broke lol... sorry tingfang... havent gotten ur present yet.. hahaha
as for now... i'm gonna run off to do my damned english Fractured Fairytale Project. argh damnnit~!!!!
20050522.
Melt Away @ 14:46.
lolx... today big walk liao... 10 km leh... beginning still mux dance some more... so bo liao rite?? aniwaex... the walk was quite okay larhx.. sarah talked non-stop thoughout the 10km. arhahahah. the seniors bonkers... they were dancing the way through... CRAZY! when we finally finished... assembled at the top again lolx... when they read out the winning number for the 1stPrize for the lucky draw thingie... it was actually one of ms lee's senior students... but she was absent!!! how stupiddid tt get?!?!? THE PRIZE WAS A CAR?! sigh... after big walk, amanda, alisha, yan siang squeezed into my car... fetching yan siang home and sending alisha andamanda to the bus stop after parkway... arhahaha... squeeze lykk siow.. lucky no sis in the car if not i kena arh... lolx that's all i guess... arhahahaha.. nthn much larhx... WTV. buaix
~>> outtx[}
20050521.
Melt Away @ 17:47.
tao nan sch. the place where most fond memories were held. where i used to believe that appearances din matter. the place where i only did 4 subjects for exams. the place where u could study SOLID stuff frm the textbook instead of jux plain note-writting. the place where ppl fooled around in class. place where guys made fun of girls and girls attacked guys. places where foolish love stories were created everywhere. be it between students or teachers. place where all my effort was so heavily placed into. the sch i will never forget. tns. where i always found the field was too small. where i felt that the field was too bare. where i felt tt the colours of the buildings were to monotonous. now i miss them all. tns. where students bombarded the canteen and crows everywhere. irritating. but whatever. still miss it. the place where a crow got beheaded. where the girls were less domineering. less ambitious. more outgoing. tns. when i hated to bother abt my hair. my clothes. my bag. my language. my attitude. my life. all i cared for was the CDs Zi Wei's lent to me. the times when i argued with guys. u see.... in girls schs... u miss out on all this fun. the times when we talked back to the teacher. when an ex-classmate lost his temper and almost killed his friend. where foolish crushes were existent. painfully remembering those times. i could never finish them all in one simple blog post. there are too many emotions. too many feelings. too much longing. 6G of tns. the days when classmates kept talking abt some fucking idiot sitting near me. put this simply. i miss everyone. the girls whom i hated. even him. yes. the fucking idiot i was toking abt. him, seriously. well without him, i've got to admit tt sch wun be as fun cos there wun be anyone to be evil to. no one to conplain to. no one to check my maths homework. no one to compete with for my english marks. no one to get angry at. no one to shout at. no one to kick during exams under my chair. yes. him. unforgettable. it's always him. my world just totally revolved around him. no, not that i liked him. it's cos i cldnt escape. the airplane, the seats, the exams, the groups. everything. almost. i jux wanna sae tt i dun hate you. nvr did nvr will. it's jux tt i get pissed whenever i hear smone saying tt i lyked you. you're not cute but u definitely are a kind soul. i'm being nice. dun push the limit. miss zi wei for her CDs. miss ruici, jia ying and nadine for all the weird times we had. miss the guys for all the fites we had lolx. miss the teachers for how retarded they actually were when i pulled her hair. how PSLE life was like. where and when CCAs were less tiring. miss how boon tiong, kai jin and titus kept making sick and pervetic jokes during classes. the times i din shriek jux for lame stuff. the days...
it's so painful to think of old times. reminisce. it feels lyk there's something missing from your soul...
20050520.
Melt Away @ 20:44.
lolx... i'm counting days of school till the sch holidays.... yay!!! jux 2 more daes of sch for me!!! arhahahah... nxt monday vesak day... public holiday... then wednesday and thursday is PTD... so no need go to sch...everyone so darn phreaking happie... duh of course actually... tis week has been seriously tiring... dance as usual 3 times a week... ballet classes were dragged longer cos of the 4 dances we had to finish learning for sunday. for the past few days, it had rained so heavily tt i cldnt even head for piano lessons... yesterday and today were the most tiring though.... we went on tis heritage tour thingy on the minority communities in sg yesterday... then i headed for double classes of Ms Lee... as usual.... class dragged on till 2200hrs... as for today... we went for tis sculpture walk thingie... it's not exactly wat u would call fun... but the designs of the buildings on both trips were relli nice... most of them were lyk the relli old western/gothic/victiorian kinda style... but they dun relli deserves the oohs and ahhs.. for the past week... elaine, chi ying, jun yan and i hv planned to go out nxt monday as it's a public holidae marh... we're tinking of going to CineLeisure... lolx we finally decided on meeting at K Box... chi ying wanted to watch kingdom of heaven.... but elaine and i dun wanna watch... besides... it's NC16!!! so wtv larhx... maybe we'll skip the movie part and jux shop lyk crazy and jux go ahead to take neoprints... ruici's a crazy song writer... she came up wit tis song lyrics abt 2 daexxx ago... and guess wat... MELODY COMPOSED BY ME... arhahahha... sound so egoistic... lolx sorry arhahaha... btw... chi ying finally talked to mrs fern abt changing seats away from rachel kam... lucky her... mrs fern said she wld tink abt it...
signing out--
20050516.
Melt Away @ 17:57.
lalala... ppl mug while scgs rejoices.... yay all enrichment classes till june holidays!!! lolx i'm feeling damn hyper today la... today's home econs was as usual... the tchr sucked. but this time, dong said tt most of our butter cookies were burnt. WELL... HEATHER AND I WERE NOT TO BLAME!!! *lol this sounds like an excuse...* well duh... we had to help clean up her darn shelf which wasnt lyk cleaned for decades... spiders - spider webs - cobwebs - THICK DUST. argh... i even squished a spider while cleaning... nyahahahaha... but smhw the cookies tasted nice larhx... so WTV!!!! then for assembly, there was this band from SAF. yar they may not be famous but their music relli nice... they played Uptown Girls by Westlife, Angels by Robbie Williams, a jazz piece, and I luv Rock n Roll remade by Britney Spears. haiz... for the last piece of music, the most inaproppriate instrument was the saxophone... well i think so cos it made it so... JAZZY?! still they rocked the crowd. lolx when i was dismissed, i checked my phone... there was tis idiotic person * i dono hu* hu smsed me... the sms was so lame n was definitely sent to the rong receipient. so i went to call back and gaf him a piece of my mind. but when he picked up the call, he only went "huh?" and "what?". argh. freaking pissed! i got so pissed so i swore at him saying " fuck you" and hung up. chi ying, willa, jia hui, jun yan and quite a few others were satring at me and laughing. jia hui joked tt i was being mean... mwarhahaha... willa said in the bus tt i the scolding wasnt harsh enuf. WOAH. now i'm listening to Gwen Stefani's Hollaback Girl. " SHIT is Bananas. B-A-N-A-N-A" lol bb.
20050509.
Melt Away @ 20:30.
lolx i'm bck again... finally. abt the inter-class captain's ball game. as usual, i'm the defender again. SY missed watching the first game cos we were in the comp lab doing research for CME... it was lyk damn phreaking cold there. aniwaex, when i got out and ran to the hall, mi classmates said tt i looked pale. GAWD DAMMNIT. SINCE WHEN DO I LOOK PALE. i din feel sick or anithing, so i jux went on to play SY vs. GY. Since Davinia was sick, vanessa took over her *ty van!!!* when one of the GY player tried shooting the ball to her captain, i smacked the ball so hard tt when she tried catching it, it totally bounced outta her hands and went outta the court. YAY! SY's ball... *sorry GY if i sound mean lolx* aniwaex, we won... not lyk last time... we lost last the previous time haha... after the first game... i cldnt stop shaking all over. for no apparent reason... legs were jus lyk jelly... then we played against 1PE... who won us... again. Great game 1PE. U gals relli play hard *cheers for 1PE*!!! hehe... there came the game tt i dreaded the most... 1PR. the previous time they had a tchr on their team. MALE SOME MORE. so they lyk totally trashed us. but tis time, there aint any tchrs. apparently, SOME PEOPLE were "travelling" so it was lyk damn phreaking pissed for me to see tt lor. tis time natalie took over davinia instead of vanessa * thnx nattie*. we tied.. phew.... i was so gonna rip my team members' heads off if we lost... ok aniwaex... after all my teams original 3 games, we went downstairs to the sheltered court to cheer for the rest of the SY teams. i kept replacing the defenders... happie thing was. SY WON!!!!! whee!!!!! SY RAWKS MY SAWKS!!
After school, i went to try getting my white canvas ballet shoes again... finally... i got them.... heng arh. one more day and i'd hv dieded in pieces arh. haiz... i've got so many projects... argh... there's literatue, geography, english and the damned CME... damn... *reality check* i've still got hw to do. bye ppl...
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Melt Away @ 13:39.
harlowex ppl. i'm terrible man... i'm typing this during cme lesson. lolx. aniwaex, mrs fern told us the gender of her unborn baby liaox... IT'S A GIRL!!!! WOOT! hahahahahah... i'm supposed to be doing tis stupid project on the forefathers of sg. gawd.... dead broing. brrr the air con's cold.... i'll continue when i get home. buaiz.
20050508.
Melt Away @ 19:41.
i'm damn freaking pissed now 'cos the comp was lyk seriously slow jux now larhx... it was lagging the whole comp. thnx to damned IE... i'm using MF now newaex so wun lag... aniwaex... this morning i tried getting my white canvas ballet shoes, but the damned shop wasn't even open. bleargh. then after tt, i went to jun yan's hse to do this stupid literature project. chi ying was there oso. she so lucky.... even though she has to share her bedroom, it was lyk damn phreaking big larhx!!! can put 4 single beds in it. anihow... although we spent abt 3 to 4 hrs on the project, we still cldnt finish it. wah fuck... there's lyk still the damned maze walls. shant elaborate. aniwaex larhx... my brain is failing me... weird dreams tt smtyms turn out to be premonitions, weird intuition, weird emotions, weird tongue, weird nerves.... JUST TOTALLY WEIRD. been tinking too much larhx... i guess i need a end-of-the-year goal. no matter how kiasu tis sounds i still hv to attain it. got many leh...
must pass wit at least B4 for chinese by the end of the yr.
must mantain at least A2 for science. the better if i get A1...
must pass my grd 8 piano wit at least merit. [[damned scales...]]
must pass my intermediate foundation exam. [[damned majors...]]
finish my hw
get the drift of algebra
stay in SY *sniff*... even if i drop, must at least drop to SE!!!!!!!! argh...
Now wat? achieve them lor... damned brain. i'm pressurising myself so u'd beta function properly. talking abt jun yan's hse.... i saw this ant crawling abt on the floor. saddistic instincts kicked in so i grabbed a pen-knife and tried to disect it. in the end, i gaf up and squashed it instead. i din wanna make scratches on jun yan's floor... hw, sch, ballet, piano, dance. five things. and they're alreadi driving me nuts. can u imagine if i had tuition?! gawd...
20050507.
Melt Away @ 22:31.
You scored as Antisocial Personality Disorder. Congratulations! You have ASPD! You know that blatantly disregarding social norms and the rights of others isn't just illegal; it's FUN. Jail time? Eh, look at Gary Gilmore... was he really that bad of a guy?
Dead bored nthn to do at all... got this quiz off heather's blog. webbie's quizfarm.com.
20050506.
Melt Away @ 19:26.
on wednesday, mrs F. made us rite a poem on clouds. woah is she mad or wat. so i was tinking of lookin' at the clouds yesterday. but it was raining so heavily tt even a tree outside the sch fell into the sch grounds and oso "shaving" quite a few other trees bald... then this morning, the clouds were so damn freakin' thick tt i couldnt spot a single individual cloud la!!! Aniwaex, i jus went on to rite crap. and guess wat. it took me simply 5 mins to create a poem on clouds with 16 lines. it goes like: *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* white and fluffy out of my window hanging just right there not too high, not too low
i just saw for a moment there a persian cat in its comfy lair
you are where all the angels reside so when i feel down you're right by my side
white and fluffy out of my window i don't see you where art thou? *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* there. a poem in less than 5 mins. hahaha... brain dead for the 4th verse's last 2 lines... so jux added crap larhx. OI.. written under pressure leh... can rite 16 lines veri gd already! hahaha.
oh god... there's dance at 0730hrs tmr... so it means i gotta take bus at 0630hrs. SIOW... after tt still got ballet sm more... wah i seriously stress la... even maths also drivin' me mad. stupid number pattern questions. yeah they're easy but i hate maths. it's my worst subject...
mi brain gonna explode. my schedule is lyk crammed lyk shyt. i've got dance+ballet 7 times a week. tt can drive a person mad. dun forget my piano lessons, sch, projects, hw and my own free time. oh yesh.... oso my extra chinese lessons.
i'm not relli sure abt everythin's marks in sch. but so far i've got an A1 for geog, A2 for science, B3 for eng. Duh my chinese i got D7. failed lyk shyt. [[*sniff*]] and so far... i've been trying to find anthr music video for my blog. it seems tt the avril lavigne videos dun work.... [[*sigh*]]
20050505.
Melt Away @ 18:35.
Finally!!! sorry i'm psycho lolx.... it's jux bcos i finally managed to change the blog skin larhx.... k sorry... getting moronic now...
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Melt Away @ 15:12.
Sorry.... i'm not in the rite mind today.... bsides... i havent been blogging fer a long time liaox... Many things in my life has gone rong... I'm falling apart. Mentally perhaps... not exactly physically. Well... i failed my damn chinese. My lit still sux much and i cant do much abt it. Him. I cant do anything abt it. it's over. i've had enuf. I'm mad. crazy. pissed. wateva u tink. jux seriously disoriented. neither am i feeling good abt it. damn u. i dun care wat u tink nemore. i dun wanna care nemore. u can forget abt me toking to u. EVER AGAIN. anywaex. i finally got FIR's albums last saturday. now i'm hooked onto the song LYDIA. well.... my bro lucky... he's got a new cell phone and i'm still stuck wit this seriously old phone... well at least it's beta than my previous one. bsides. i'm seriously off rs now. it's gettin lamer and lamer... i relli cant understand if ppl still can live wit it la frenship week... every class' given a letter box to decorate so tt fwens can send letters. our box is bright orange. woah. SY-- shocking. first our class tee now our leta box. Frankly... there's not much. but smhow there's a lot weighing my mind down. but i hv no idea why. haiz...
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